My farewell drama to the pack who taught me how to love a paradigm of diversified individuals, who challenged me to do better everyday and who opened up another dimension of possibilities, dreams and realities. With much love and sincerity, this article has been composed days before my farewell to them and eventually was done few hours before I made my final adieu.
My Journey, My Struggles, My Choices: No Holds Barred
The Starting Point
I entered the review center room with confidence that I will make it. Not the board exam but the preliminary examination for Tsuneishi Technical Services Philippines Inc. I answered all the questions with intense feeling of fulfillment. I was relaxed. That was August 2009. Who would have thought that I would seriously give myself a chance to work here? Nevertheless, I went miles as I undergo all the tedious procedures just to be chosen among the hundreds of candidates, mostly reviewees like me aiming for the best spot. I felt the star danced with me as I read the text message confirming my acceptance. I knew then, it was the start of my journey to the real world.
The Road Less Traveled
Thought sank in just a few days after my first day – the road I have chosen to explore was way different from what I have expected. I was crying almost every night because I was desperate to quit. But I was too weak to do it. Along with the daily undertakings I went through, I have managed to face the consequences of my choice calmly. I knew God was part of it. He gave me what I have asked and prayed for. I looked at every positive thing to consider and I stayed here. I gave myself a chance to get to know my work better and accepted the challenge of learning the Mould Lofting job. It was not an easy task. The terminologies were cracking up my nerves. The different orientations of numerous plans and drawings covering up my table were messing my entire cubicle the way it seemingly messed up my whole emotional balance. I would write in my journal pouring out all my frustrations in myself, my choices and my decisions. I would talk to my parents and enumerate all the experiences I had dealing with my work, the people around and the environment; and they would always encourage me to continue and cope up because I was born a fighter. I did. I managed to stay firm in this battlefield. For a year and almost 9 months, I knew I have enjoyed. My stay was a lot more worthwhile than anyone can credit.
The Dilemma and the Choice
Almost exactly a year ago, I wrote my Resignation Letter for a sole reason – I want to pursue post graduate studies. But I was not able to print it out because I was, again, too weak to quit. Struggling positively, I waited for the right time, always telling myself that I will never stay here for too long. Just a few weeks ago, I was on my normal daily routine when suddenly, after staring blankly into my monitor, I came to a realization – I am no longer happy dealing with NC pieces. I am longing for buildings, houses and other infrastructures. But still, I was faced with a dilemma – two roads diverged with an insurmountable boundary. One, to pursue my post graduate studies and practice structural/civil engineering and two, to continue what I have started here and increase my skill level by learning the different softwares globally used. I applied for several firms, all related with ship designs except for one – a structural firm owned by a former instructor. Fate was playful, because I was left to choose between another well-known Ship Design Firm in Cebu City and a Structural Firm. I decided – this is my chance to pursue what I have long been missing, so I grabbed the opportunity as I got accepted in the Structural Firm, turning down one of the best Ship Design Firm in Asia. That was September 10, 2011 – one of the most fulfilling days I had. I cancelled my filed undertime for Monday (September 12, 2011) because I was looking forward to finally printing my long-time saved Resignation Letter.
The Transition: My Thoughts to Actions
First thing’s first. Immediately after the bell rang, Monday (September 12, 2011), I printed out my official letter of farewell, and handed it to my Supervisor with a smile. Right then, when the words silently came out of my mouth, I knew he was not expecting it. He was smiling as well. We had a sort of formal interview and I honestly answered all his questions, mostly why’s. The news spread like magic just as the cliché goes, news has wings. I knew a lot were wondering, and perhaps assuming a lot of things. I, myself, was not expecting I would be resigning this soon. But I knew I have to. That feeling of excitement towards something you have been planning to do and yet it took you so many months to finally accomplish it. I saw my colleagues’ smiles along with their never-ending questions of why’s. Yes, it made me feel at ease when someone would just say, “You did the right thing!” because despite of the very fact that they don’t know what I am undergoing, they still managed to share some positive viewpoints which made me a lot more inspired to continue what I have just started.
Reasons Behind
Career and Studies – my priority as of the moment; oftentimes I am asked where would I go, will I join the famous newly established in Cebu but US based Fluor Daniel? Will I be in the very well known Keppel Singmarine? Will I go immediately to what they consider as the greener pasture Singapore? Neither. I am merely following my heart’s desire to finally enjoy and reap the fruits of my five-year hard-earned piece of parchment a.k.a. diploma and eventually, under God’s grace, learn more on how to further enhance His blessings. In fact, I won’t be enjoying a higher compensation but I will be indulging myself on a stressful paradigm which badly needs my time management more than I need it here. It is a great risk indeed. I will be getting out from my own comfort zone as I will have to race with a vast and widely established world outside, a lot different than what I have enjoyed here. I have fears and as far as my emotional health is concerned, I am still coping with such. I am simply hoping that with God’s help, everything will turn out just fine.
This is It!
I will be missing a lot of things here, a lot of people. My batch mates who eventually turned out to be my friends and confidante in all sorts of fun, giggles and sweet nothings, be it in the mail or during our bonding anywhere here. I will surely miss our kulitan, suntukan, hiyawan, kantsawan and every little thing we did. I will miss our dinner together in GY, Videoke, the breath-taking breeze in Toledo Baywalk which turned out to be one freaking experience with them, the batchoy moments during our first few months here, the birthday parties, the cakes and the surprises, the anniversary celebrations and most of all, the friendship I had with them. I will miss my teammates, my Onboard Mag family. I will miss writing articles. I will miss organizing dinners, get-togethers, valentine’s group dates, and outings. I will miss my room, my usual jogging. I will miss everything. My stay here taught me a lot of things. Life is an adventure, a race. I simply want to explore and find my happiness where I can race properly. I have no idea if I will make it to the finish line victorious, but one thing’s for sure, God is always there ready to embrace in whatever struggles I will be facing. With all the life’s principles and definitions, I would rather say that our existence matters not on what we have but how we feel. I am considering my TTSP experience, a detour, but a fruitful and adventurous one.
So long friends! God Bless! Ciao! XOXO
The Road Less Traveled
Thought sank in just a few days after my first day – the road I have chosen to explore was way different from what I have expected. I was crying almost every night because I was desperate to quit. But I was too weak to do it. Along with the daily undertakings I went through, I have managed to face the consequences of my choice calmly. I knew God was part of it. He gave me what I have asked and prayed for. I looked at every positive thing to consider and I stayed here. I gave myself a chance to get to know my work better and accepted the challenge of learning the Mould Lofting job. It was not an easy task. The terminologies were cracking up my nerves. The different orientations of numerous plans and drawings covering up my table were messing my entire cubicle the way it seemingly messed up my whole emotional balance. I would write in my journal pouring out all my frustrations in myself, my choices and my decisions. I would talk to my parents and enumerate all the experiences I had dealing with my work, the people around and the environment; and they would always encourage me to continue and cope up because I was born a fighter. I did. I managed to stay firm in this battlefield. For a year and almost 9 months, I knew I have enjoyed. My stay was a lot more worthwhile than anyone can credit.
The Dilemma and the Choice
Almost exactly a year ago, I wrote my Resignation Letter for a sole reason – I want to pursue post graduate studies. But I was not able to print it out because I was, again, too weak to quit. Struggling positively, I waited for the right time, always telling myself that I will never stay here for too long. Just a few weeks ago, I was on my normal daily routine when suddenly, after staring blankly into my monitor, I came to a realization – I am no longer happy dealing with NC pieces. I am longing for buildings, houses and other infrastructures. But still, I was faced with a dilemma – two roads diverged with an insurmountable boundary. One, to pursue my post graduate studies and practice structural/civil engineering and two, to continue what I have started here and increase my skill level by learning the different softwares globally used. I applied for several firms, all related with ship designs except for one – a structural firm owned by a former instructor. Fate was playful, because I was left to choose between another well-known Ship Design Firm in Cebu City and a Structural Firm. I decided – this is my chance to pursue what I have long been missing, so I grabbed the opportunity as I got accepted in the Structural Firm, turning down one of the best Ship Design Firm in Asia. That was September 10, 2011 – one of the most fulfilling days I had. I cancelled my filed undertime for Monday (September 12, 2011) because I was looking forward to finally printing my long-time saved Resignation Letter.
The Transition: My Thoughts to Actions
First thing’s first. Immediately after the bell rang, Monday (September 12, 2011), I printed out my official letter of farewell, and handed it to my Supervisor with a smile. Right then, when the words silently came out of my mouth, I knew he was not expecting it. He was smiling as well. We had a sort of formal interview and I honestly answered all his questions, mostly why’s. The news spread like magic just as the cliché goes, news has wings. I knew a lot were wondering, and perhaps assuming a lot of things. I, myself, was not expecting I would be resigning this soon. But I knew I have to. That feeling of excitement towards something you have been planning to do and yet it took you so many months to finally accomplish it. I saw my colleagues’ smiles along with their never-ending questions of why’s. Yes, it made me feel at ease when someone would just say, “You did the right thing!” because despite of the very fact that they don’t know what I am undergoing, they still managed to share some positive viewpoints which made me a lot more inspired to continue what I have just started.
Reasons Behind
Career and Studies – my priority as of the moment; oftentimes I am asked where would I go, will I join the famous newly established in Cebu but US based Fluor Daniel? Will I be in the very well known Keppel Singmarine? Will I go immediately to what they consider as the greener pasture Singapore? Neither. I am merely following my heart’s desire to finally enjoy and reap the fruits of my five-year hard-earned piece of parchment a.k.a. diploma and eventually, under God’s grace, learn more on how to further enhance His blessings. In fact, I won’t be enjoying a higher compensation but I will be indulging myself on a stressful paradigm which badly needs my time management more than I need it here. It is a great risk indeed. I will be getting out from my own comfort zone as I will have to race with a vast and widely established world outside, a lot different than what I have enjoyed here. I have fears and as far as my emotional health is concerned, I am still coping with such. I am simply hoping that with God’s help, everything will turn out just fine.
This is It!
I will be missing a lot of things here, a lot of people. My batch mates who eventually turned out to be my friends and confidante in all sorts of fun, giggles and sweet nothings, be it in the mail or during our bonding anywhere here. I will surely miss our kulitan, suntukan, hiyawan, kantsawan and every little thing we did. I will miss our dinner together in GY, Videoke, the breath-taking breeze in Toledo Baywalk which turned out to be one freaking experience with them, the batchoy moments during our first few months here, the birthday parties, the cakes and the surprises, the anniversary celebrations and most of all, the friendship I had with them. I will miss my teammates, my Onboard Mag family. I will miss writing articles. I will miss organizing dinners, get-togethers, valentine’s group dates, and outings. I will miss my room, my usual jogging. I will miss everything. My stay here taught me a lot of things. Life is an adventure, a race. I simply want to explore and find my happiness where I can race properly. I have no idea if I will make it to the finish line victorious, but one thing’s for sure, God is always there ready to embrace in whatever struggles I will be facing. With all the life’s principles and definitions, I would rather say that our existence matters not on what we have but how we feel. I am considering my TTSP experience, a detour, but a fruitful and adventurous one.So long friends! God Bless! Ciao! XOXO
That was it. I think I was able to express my thoughts. Though my initial plan was to include some not-so-good observations but then, during the process of composing this, the angelic side of me prevailed. After sending my farewell speech to my selected colleagues, I received remarks such as:
1. Ais, di pa diay mi pwede muresign kay di pa mn mi kamao mubuhat ani.
2. Ais, quit engineering, pursue journalism. (toink, I know I'm not as gifted as Maria Ressa. hihi, oh well, we're engineers.. haha kidding, half meant :p)
heart-warming indeed and so, I can't just let time erase these mem'ries, and here I am blogging again for the very nth time.
I was actually searching for my old blogs when I realized that most of them I have already deactivated when I was on my job hunting mode way back a couple of years ago since I was planning not to leave a trace of my immature side in cyberspace in case my prospective employer would just google my name. I even tried googling my name then, I still do it now, to check if there are links that would lead my identity to any malicious and indecent cyber articles and the likes. But anyway, I still have my wordpress though and my old blogger which is filled with Daily Scriptures which is way back 2008, not so updated. I remember I made another blog a few months ago, I was still in TTSP that time and I wanted to pour out my observations but then I had to change my mind so instead of ranting, I only had a starter article and I think it was never followed with another post. I just couldn't remember the domain and even the add. tsk, an epic fail of me. But anyway, I only used it once, I might have deactivated it after all. I wanted to create another blog from my wordpress account but then something's always wrong. I might as well extend my patience and bear with my ojt experience blog and my blogthings collection in the mean time. Hopefully, this will be my constant abode here in the blogger world.
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